two days. at home. never been like this for, i think, a year. even christmas didn’t stop me from working. what can i say? “at last!” i stayed home without thinking about work or anyone at the office or any tasks left undone. i couldn’t say that vacations are wastes of time. but i do feel that i deserve this and to think that i will be busy again for rest of the year.
yesterday, which is a thursday, i woke up super late. like 1:00 pm. did not eat my lunch until 5:00 pm. i would say it’s what we call “altanghap” (almusal, tanghalian, hapunan). when i woke up, my mom and dad were done with the laundry and them and my siblings were all crammed together in front of the television. i found out that there’s nothing good to watch so i turned the dvd player on and put my “all tagalog” compilation of movies. hahaha!
we watched “my bestfriend’s girlfriend” then “my big love” and lastly, after checking the regular channels again, we decided to watch “one more chance”. it was really fun just being lazy for a few days. they told me we were supposed to go to bulacan but i do not want to go. my high school friends were planning on an outing, but was eventually cancelled, so i told them i want to be alone for the rest of “good friday”.
as it was, friday, i was all alone in the house. turned the television and my buddy dvd player and started watching “ally mcbeal”. then i got tired and watched “7th heaven”. and then watched “ally mcbeal” again. i finished 10 episodes of it’s first season. i usually finish one whole season of a series in just one sitting, but i wanted to sleep. so i took a bit of nap and got back to my couch and watched my ever-favorite tagalog movie, without any sarcasm, “labs kita, okay ka lang”. then to “ally mcbeal” again.
when my family came back from their trip, they told me that everybody was looking for me. i told them that i just don’t feel like going somewhere and talk to everybody and be the family “clown” again. there are a lot of times where i can go with them to bulacan. just not today. i loved my solitude. like a breathe of fresh air. but i would still prefer the “cancelled” outing with my friends.
and then they told me the “big” news. one of my cousins, again, is getting married! yeah, what a shame that they can all get married. she is two years younger than me. well, whatever! i am now hating weddings. everyone around or close to me are getting married and have kids. whatever! i still don’t feel like a loser being “alone”.
i can still hear ayrin telling me, “eh kasi abril, napakagaling mo. napakagaling mo mag-push away ng tao!”. i can’t help it! waaaah! i can’t like guys whom i don’t like. i don’t fall too hard on them especially if i was always thinking they’ll leave me like what other guys did to my friends. and i don’t want another “bad” habit until i’m willing to give up my standards to a worthy guy who’ll not be so much “demanding” of my time and will understand every bit of my job.
actually, i always think that M1 is like a vice. you know it’s absolutely bad for your health and your whole being but you can’t stop because you feel like you’ll have the side effects of withdrawal if you quit that freakin’ vice. and those side effect are bad, too.
i think i would need professional help. hahaha! i missed the office but one more day off is really fine. i would really love to cut my hair again. much shorter like yoon eun hye’s (coffee prince and princess hours). new hair, new me, new clothes (but some are still black), new whatever! he haven’t seen me with short hair. we weren’t able to see each other for three months. i did not go to the image plug shoot. i guess, that’s my way of getting him off my back. but i miss him. gravely miss him.
i think i will have my hair more shorter than now. i’m pretty sure it will look great on me. a little more shorter hair would be cool. hehehe! i will have this picture printed out and give it again to the one who’ll cut my freakin’ hair.
i miss my friends now. i am hoping to see them after the long weekend. GMA had the whole office fumigated so all of us are not permitted to enter the premises until tomorrow morning. but i’ll be back at the office by sunday. it will be a busy week again. hehehe!
saturday will be another “april: the couch kamote” day”. i am planning to finish the first season of “ally mcbeal” and just bring the dvd’s to my apartment.
